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Tuesday, April 29, 2003

Tue, 29 Apr 2003 05:53:27 GMT

well, this folks- is my last entry. i was going through this thing tonight, reading most of my entries as i was making them 'private' and decided to leave up quotes and poetry.... everyone, if you still wanna be in the sarah-zone, go to my new xanga, xfarfromautumnx ... catch ya'll on the flip side...

(a final )

~moi.

Monday, April 28, 2003

Mon, 28 Apr 2003 05:35:02 GMT

so yah... i made a new xanga. its **here**... tell me if you like it, and tell me which one i should use. because i like the name better there, but i like the fact that i have all my posts here.. ahh, what should i do??

hmm... i'm attracted to a certain guy. he's smart, humorous, cute, caring, happy & sad at the same time, softspoken, artistic, in love with God, fun to be around, and absolutely adorable... sometimes i wish he knew... and sometimes i'm not too sure. but if its *you* and you read this, and you recognize it, then tell me what you think. i dunno...

everyone else, don't laugh at me while i tattoo my heart on my shoe, never picked up by anyone, i kick it around- it sounds good to me... (lets give it a go?)

Monday, April 28, 2003

Mon, 28 Apr 2003 02:47:19 GMT

so, i fixed it... houston, all systems are go for the moment, but i still got the idea to create a new xanga. so i just might...

phew, my xanga isn't broken. oh yea, btw, this teaches me not to add a "!" to some html code just for fun!

Monday, April 28, 2003

Mon, 28 Apr 2003 02:29:25 GMT

oh my gosh, what did i just do to my xanga? could one lil ole' me, really have broken a xanga!?!?!?! oh boy, if anyone can help,please send me a message in a bottle... err comment

Saturday, April 26, 2003

Sat, 26 Apr 2003 17:55:58 GMT

BY THE WAY!! I AM NOT ACTUALLY READING THE 'INDOOR MARIJUANA HORTICULTURE- THE INDOOR BIBLE' BUT INSTEAD, I TYPED IN 'BIBLE' IN THE SEARCH THING, AND I THOUGHT THAT IT WAS FUNNY, THAT RIGHT BETWEEN THE MESSAGE, AND NASB THINLINE BIBLE WAS THIS BOOK...

my mom is home!! yay! she was diagnosed with bipolar disorder... thanks to all who were praying for her, and still keep her on your lists thankyou.

Thursday, April 24, 2003

Thu, 24 Apr 2003 01:19:23 GMT

hmm... today was overall good. God is soo faithful!

My dad emailed me, and here's what he said:

"Well what we talked about my be coming to pass Sarah, yesterday 4-22-03 I took mom to Mirmont, she is under a 48 hour blackout period. I need to know that what ever happens I need your help cause she may not have a job any longer. I will get you your tuition from my 401k for next semester and with
you and Bill's help we can make it through this. Hopefully mom will stay with us and the whole house hold gets CLEAN. Read Acts 9:36-43. For this was
your mother before Julie died. Lets PRAY it and CLAIM it for your mom that she the good woman would rise from her spiritual death.
He is Devine and we are debranch.
In Jesus name,
Dad"

So I found out the 48-hour blackout is when they aren't allowed to talk to anyone... This is exciting, and scary all at the same time. But as Tom reminded me, God is in control, and he won't just leave us hanging

If you guys could just lift up my mom (Connie) in your prayers, that would rock my sox off!

thanks ahead of time

's and kisses and hugs and stuff,
moi.

Wednesday, April 23, 2003

Wed, 23 Apr 2003 12:44:18 GMT

good morning everybody! today is decent, so far. i had one class and i did my homework, all i have to do is do the final project part three... happy times. can i express how freaking cold i am right now?? brrrrrrrrrr..... (i'm in the modulars, i guess they've got the AC on?!?!) i think that growing up is one of the most important, but one of the most unformal times in life. like, its necessary, and it's very important- but no one can tell you how to get there... sometimes it takes people longer to get there, sometimes people have been pushed there too early. and i think that it takes some reflection. stepping back and looking down the road of your life... hmmm... wow. i must be in a funky mood today- i'm reading "The Road Not Taken" by Robert Frost, and I'm crying... Its so spiritual (at least to me!)

The Road Not Taken ~Robert Frost
Two roads diverged in a yellow wood,
And sorry I could not travel both
And be one traveler, long I stood
And looked down one as far as I could
To where it bent in the undergrowth;

Then took the other, as just as fair,
And having perhaps the better claim,
Because it was grassy and wanted wear;
Though as for that the passing there
Had worn them really about the same,

And both that morning equally lay
In leaves no step had trodden black.
Oh, I kept the first for another day!
Yet knowing how way leads on to way,
I doubted if I should ever come back.

I shall be telling this with a sigh
Somewhere ages and ages hence:
Two roads diverged in a wood, and I--
I took the one less traveled by,
And that has made all the difference.

Tuesday, April 22, 2003

Tue, 22 Apr 2003 11:26:41 GMT

i have been posting like crazy lately ... hmmm.. how is everybody? i'm doing well. its kind of a sad day today... four years since my grandma died. i love her though, and still hope that she is smiling down on me from heaven...

everybody pray for my mom. she's an alcoholic, and she needs major help. but we can't force it on her... so if you pray, please pray. if you wish, please wish... etc.

i can't believe that i've got ten days until i'm out of here. wow. i'm not sure if this is a good thing, or a bad thing... hmmm. i can't wait until this summer though. just to work, and to be driving (learn from my dad, so he doesn't make me extra nervous!)... and to help out with youth group, and actually go to church every sunday, and to get myself out of debt some! awesome...

Tuesday, April 22, 2003

Tue, 22 Apr 2003 00:56:56 GMT

this is the funniest convo i've had in a while its with this kid andrew that i met here, on xanga...

xfarfromautumnx: so, how was your holiday?
xfadedxpolaroidx: perty good yours?
xfarfromautumnx: it was decent- i got to see almost all of the family
xfarfromautumnx: crazy people
xfadedxpolaroidx: didja hunt for eggs?
xfarfromautumnx: actually, they did... but i didn't
xfadedxpolaroidx: wull... why not?
xfarfromautumnx: cuz i didn't want to steal candy from five and six year olds
xfarfromautumnx: and they only put $1 bills in the eggs this year
xfarfromautumnx: last year, they had two $20's and a ten for the 'old kids' to get off their butts and run around like retards
xfarfromautumnx: lol
xfadedxpolaroidx: that easter bunnies getting cheaper and cheaper, man. ;:
xfarfromautumnx: for real
xfadedxpolaroidx: grrr. all i got were quarters growing up.
xfarfromautumnx: that really stinks
xfarfromautumnx: every holiday, if i get nothing else, i'm sure to get $20 and some kind of Sr. Citizen needlepoint thing from my grandma
xfarfromautumnx: actually, this year, she had 'money bunnies'
xfadedxpolaroidx: she does needlepoint too!? maybe she's in my club
xfarfromautumnx: hehe...
xfarfromautumnx: i knit
xfarfromautumnx: i don't think she does the needlepoint
xfarfromautumnx: i think she buys it when the old ladies at the sr. citizen center sell them for christmas
xfadedxpolaroidx: does it have like trees and stuff and says "happy holidays"?
xfarfromautumnx: nope
xfarfromautumnx: sorry
xfarfromautumnx: little things
xfarfromautumnx: little stars or trees, or christmas bulbs
xfarfromautumnx: with a twenty tied to it
xfarfromautumnx: hehe
xfarfromautumnx: my bro. calls her 'twenty dollar gramma'
xfadedxpolaroidx: man. mine would be like a 10 dolla gramma, or maybe 15 dolla gramma when she's in a good mood
xfarfromautumnx: lol
xfarfromautumnx: once, she gave me twenty five (for graduation)
xfarfromautumnx: lol
xfarfromautumnx: 12 years in public schools and all i got was a measly extra five
xfarfromautumnx: lol
xfarfromautumnx: just kidding- i was grateful
xfadedxpolaroidx: it's better than a sweater anyway, right?
xfarfromautumnx: true true
xfadedxpolaroidx: i used to get turtle necks from my grandma. i hated turtle necks with a passion, but you know how you would always pretend to like whatever you got because you're parents told you to? well, my granparents took my act seriously and kept buying me turtlenecks.
xfarfromautumnx: heh....
xfarfromautumnx: thats how it was w/ my aunt delores
xfarfromautumnx: except her thing was hats and gloves
xfadedxpolaroidx: you have an aunt delores!?
xfarfromautumnx: yes!
xfarfromautumnx: do u?
xfadedxpolaroidx: no! but i've always wanted one.
xfarfromautumnx: haha
xfarfromautumnx: her name is delores love
xfadedxpolaroidx: is she a doctor?
xfarfromautumnx: no she's a teacher
xfarfromautumnx: her husband tom builds rafts
xfarfromautumnx: and she has two kids... amanda love, and colby love
xfadedxpolaroidx: if she was a doctor she could be "dr. delores love"
xfadedxpolaroidx: dr delores love and her looove hour. right here on 94.1 the looove channel
xfarfromautumnx: ha
xfarfromautumnx: i make fun of colby cuz i can just imagine 'your listening to colby looove on 89.9 smoooth jazzz...
xfarfromautumnx: "
xfadedxpolaroidx: that would so rock. i'm completely envious.
xfarfromautumnx: heh
xfarfromautumnx: do you have a polaroid camera??
xfadedxpolaroidx: no, but i have photoshop and i can make it look like i do
xfarfromautumnx: heh.. cool
xfarfromautumnx: i'm envious that you have photoshop
xfadedxpolaroidx: oh good! now we have a mutual envious...ness. and i think that's a good thing
xfarfromautumnx: yep

Monday, April 21, 2003

Mon, 21 Apr 2003 17:21:39 GMT

i changed my screen name... it is now:
xfarfromautumnx

that said, see ya'll on the flip side
's and stuff,
moi.